don't judge the book by it's cover

Saw too much type of people recently. It's a good thing to know more about others. Really can't judge someone by the first sight you see them.

I knew someone at a camp recently. He is so irritating. I disliked him. The way he speak, the way he order people to do things and the way he scolds people. He looks so proud. Till the last day of camping, I saw his weakness. He is not high educated. He don't even know how to spell thin. He could speak English so well but actually, he don't really know English well. At that moment, I forgive everything that he had done and the words that he used to scold me. I answered properly him when he talks to me. I feel good :).

Next, I knew this girl from a camp too. She looks so pretty and mature. She looks kind and friendly. But the other side of her is actually not that good. She makes people to hate her. Maybe she hurts people with some words without her knowing. When I saw her crying cause of the conflicts, I can't hate her anymore. At last, I comforted her. And she told that she feel very very suffer, she wanted to find a person to express it all out but failed. Maybe she don't get to treat like that before.

This teach me not to judge the book by it's cover. I should really know more before judge.

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free time

It's now holiday, but it's boring. Still have homeworks to be done. *Stress* Haih. School life.

Nothing to do so chose to blog about something without any idea. What I should blog about. Hmm.. Let's talk about last Thursday :). Went to Wesley Methodist Church to watch the Seoul Women Singers singing. It's awesome. They voice are so beautiful. Their voice can be as loud as the voice of using microphone. Went there with  Elena, Sarah, Chia Wei and Ju Yee. Feel so glad to have the opportunity to hear such voice :). I will remember that day forever. The day which I had accepted Christ.

Not feeling like staying at home. So boring. It's ady holiday but my mum still controlling me ==. I want outing! Oh ya :).  Glad that she is happy :). This is the first time she get so much present for her birthday. Picture will be uploaded to Facebook when I am free.

Oh ya, good luck for everyone who will be sitting for their exam :). All the best!

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i want to approach you

Everytime when I see you I feel extremely nervous and shy... I just don't know how to start the conversation with you... But I really really really wanted to approach you... Shame on me... How could this ever happen to a boy... I mean , almost everyone of my friends know a things or two about how to approch a girl... There must be something wrong with me... I think this is because of I had never approach any girls before... Since I am 7, I study in Saint Anthony (all boys school), which means I could rarely met a girl... So I did not have any experience on this until today... Maybe it is also because of I am not that talkative (unless when I am with my friends)... But that doesn't mean I am anti-social... I am just shy... I want to go near you... But EVEN if I had tried to... Haiz...............................

he smiles at me ^ .^

I am actually not interested on writing blog... that's why i seldom update my blog... but here is where I can express my feeling to her... honestly, I am hoping her to view my blog... just once please... I want her to know exactly how I felt on her.. I am not sure if she viewed my blog , but in case she did , I her to know that , my feeling to her is seriously serious... I knew she has a BF recently(few month ago which I don't want to accept this facts)... Though I am sad , my feeling to her is still there... I'll be content just by watching her... Just like today , after recess while I walking up to my class , we met and she smiled at me... But too bad, I miss my chance again... I act like an idiot in front of her... I want to smile back to her but I am too shy , I want to say hello to her but I am too afraid... Afraid of what? I have no idea... One word to describe : Noob... Where did my courage go ? Come on man... You expect a girl to take the first step? Such a coward... Anyway , if you are viewing this post... I hope you may know how I felt...

devil

\I want to slap you, till your head turn 360 degree and at last, you turn to a dummy which will stop talking bad about others.

Your words are so so so MEANINGFUL and it's all CORRECT. What you said is always CORRECT. Are you wonderful? Hey, miss! You are not! What thing make you to judge people? Your money? Don't be too proud of it, it's not clean. 

You made yourself sinful. You separated yourself from the god. Please la, save yourself. Don't make yourself end up in hell. 

You know how to say but you don't know how to do. Say until so MEANINGFUL but actually you are bull shitting. Using your dirty way to make people hate the particular person that you hate. 

Don't be too proud to move there. There is a story why you move there. But, I wish you faster move there. Move there as soon as possible. Because, I'm not feeling like seeing your retarded face any. And, I hate the way you hurt people. 

Don't make me lost my control and use some dirty way to treat you. I don't want to and I don't need to. Someone else will do that one day cause of the reason can't endure with your super duper extremely stink mouth. 

Likes to pollute people's mind with your NICE words? Ok, I will teach you how to pollute people's mind =). First, you eat rubbish and make you mouth as stink as possible. Second, talk to them and make sure that they absorb your NICE words. Lastly, you success to pollute their mind. And, you will be send to the hospital cause of food poisoning. Oh ya! Remember to remind the doctor to wash your stink heart and your stink mouth which able to speak out all the NICE words. And not to forget! Wash your brain too! Cause it is full of evil things. 

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my life

Suddenly, I feel that my life is not meaningful at all. Suddenly feeling like crying. I used to love my life, my world. But now, I feel tired and hate my life. 

My life won't go peace. It will peace, but, it will just maintain for a while. And *poof* it gone like that. 

When will the god take me away from this world? Tomorrow? The next second or the next minute? Or maybe when I wake up from my bed tomorrow, what I see is my body on my bed and I'm standing next to my body. 

Some of them once told me that I'm like that "person" now. If the "person" faced the problem that I'm having that day, then I understand why the "person" turns like that. It's all because of the person around her forced her to that condition. She was lost, no one guide her to the right path and now she turns like that. 

I cried that day, just because that I felt tired and there is no place for me to take a breath. I can't catch up with everything that happens around me. Rushing here and there. I used to be happy to rush, but now I feel tired and I'm not happy. 

Trying to help people around me everyday to make them feel that life is still meaningful. Try to make them happy and laugh. Give advise to them so that they know what to do. Hope that what I wish will come true. 

Still waiting for that day to come. Hoping for it everyday. Waiting for someone to realize.

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your tricks

*slap your right face* Hey hell! Stop doing all that things. Your tricks? It wont work to me. You purposely write that to let me see right? * slap your left face* Hey retarded! Trying to destroy my peace life? Trying to ruin my happiness and my life?

You are not ruining me. You are just ruining yourself. Want to make people hate you more? Go on with it! See your face make me feel piss off. See your super freaking msn keep on online make me feel annoying.

No one need to see your facial expression to live. You think you are so wonderful? You are NOT! You are the worst! You made her cry!

Go! Faster move there! Go the as soon as possible! Go! No one will miss you! * Boooooooooo*

leaving

Just read a blog post which make me heartache. A person who is quite important to me is leaving me. A very important friend. I love her very much. I don't wish that she will leave me.

She makes me laugh all the time. Even her one word or an action can make me laugh like crazy. I will totally miss her when she is gone. I appreciate her. I appreciate what she had done. She makes the conversation of us lively everytime. Without her, every moment of us won't be that lively :).

"I Love You!! " <3

what life is????

Really don't want to be so emo but I can't stop myself from emo'ing. Suddenly I can't found the meaning of life. 

Have to face devil which makes me offended. A masked devil. A sinful fella. She can do anything to hurt me. But she is a coward. She will talks all kinds of bad things behind me, When I can't see anything, she will do some tricks. Such a coward devil. Rich girl, go hell. My mind really full of evil things now. I hope that she was dead, deaf, dumb or disability to walk. I'm bad. I can't stop myself to think like this. 

I don't feel happy there. The dream that I chased for 5 years. Just suddenly feeling like want to stop chasing for it. I want to stop chasing. I feel that I'm not suitable at there. There is not where I belongs to. A devil there. But, I'm still making decision. Either give up or hold on with it. I hold on for 5 years. 5 suffering years there. No matter how unhappy I am, I keep on bear with it. But now, I'm tired. 

Waiting for you? What is the meaning of wait. Tired of it. 

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JLT 2010

JLT is a short from of Junior Leader Training, and I'm just back from there =D! I had a lots of fun there. Met new friends which make me feels very fun.

Say about new friends, I can't remember all of them. But I'm able to remember some of them. Hui Loo,Wann Chyi, En En, Karoline and Jacqueline are the one who I remember the most =D. Most of them is from 1st Kampar. They are friendly and nice =).

I tot I can't sleep at night, but who knows I slept XD! They will play with the torchlight at night, although it's a bit annoying, but it makes me to remember the night which is full of lights which strikes my eyes and noises.

I uploaded all the photos on Facebook =). Go and have a look when you are free. Haha.. Some of them are camera shy =P.

The girl beside Cindy is Hui Loo =). Snapped a photo of her before went back to TI =). I will miss her T__T.

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complicated feel

Now, I don't know how I feel. I just feel complicated and head going to explode soon.

Without reason, after I read something, I feel pissed off. I shouldn't feel angry but, I am. I really hate problem. I will feeling like crying when facing problem and feeling like dying when facing problems.

Well, I have my own problems just that I don't really tell everyone. Just some of them know about it. When you have problem and you need my help I will help what I'm able to. But I feel pissed off when I get blame just because I'm unable to help. I'm willing to help, but unable. Be understanding ok? Don't make me scold bad words.

Please care one's feeling. Doesn't mean that you have to tell all things out when you feel sad. Please think for your own good, you write whatever you want to and at last you will end up with making all kinds of troubles. ( Don't be too sensitive just some advise)

I have my own things to worry of. And you called me in a rainy day with storms and lightning just to tell me something which make me feel ridiculous . You almost success to make me cry. I keep on swallow my tears at band and ballet so, don't waste my energy. Do you know that it will cause dead when it's lightning and I'm answering my phone? Who knows that I will be the lucky one to get splash by the lightning? Can you be understanding? You wish to die but I don't. I still have a long journey to go. When I say I have to end this call you just act like you heard nothing and keep on telling me your problems. I'm willing to hear but I'm not in mood and I have many things to worry.

If I sound rude, sorry. If my words are offensive sorry. If I hurt you sorry. But I still have to say this things out. Don't make me turn mad and crazy soon. I don't wish to live at Tanjung Rambutan.

No need to come find me and tell me anything after read this =).. I just need to tell out some of my feelings. So at last, if I hurt anyone, really sorry! Hope that everything will go peace!:)

disappear

Just disappear like that. Without anyone's knowing. Without a word are left. What had happen?

The one who support me when I'm down. The one who know I'm sad although I don't show it out. The one who I tell everything to. The one who make me smile. The one who make me feel safe. The one who I care, just turn to another person which make me feel I don't know you any. I tot that I know the fella well but actually, I don't.

When I ask something, you sure will tell although it's secret. But now, where are you? Why can't anyone find you?

Just hope that everything will go well soon. Pray hard to get the answer.

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god answers prayer

I feel so glad when God answers prayer =). When I don't know what to do, God gave me the answer. It's like so amazing. When I'm praying, I feel peace. The feeling of peace, hard to mention.

At last, I get to know that the fella is safe now =). Didn't disappear but just away. Thank You God!

I love God. I love Jesus. I love my Savior. I love my Lord.

examination over

Examination is finally over :).Well, I have no confident to get good result for this final exam.

No need to face the books anymore :D. Can online without get nag. Hehe. Hope everyone can get good result this time.

Going to steamboat with friends tomorrow =). Waiting for it! I'm going to be fat very soon. Keep on eating recently. It's a good thing or bad thing? Normally, this happen cause I'm unhappy but now I don't know the reason. Maybe cause unhappy :). Many things happen recently.

Feel lonely now. Maybe cause someone is not with me. Although everyone is here now but I still feel lonely.

Leaved my blog for so long and now I don't have anything interesting to update. Sorry for all my readers =D. I feel happy when some of my friends ask me why I didn't update my blog. Thank you to be my loyal reader! =D

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this is life

Very emo recently. Cause of things that happened around me and things that happened to me. Really tired to live, but this is life.

After read a blog, a girl's blog, I feel that I don't have any right to sigh or cry. Cause I'm not the most unlucky person in the world. What I'm having now is just quarter of her suffer. No, not even quarter.

Someone msn me when I'm going to blog. Asked me some question which frightened me and ruined my mood. Maybe the question that she ask will come true one day. I'm ady prepare for it. Standing by for it.

Every promise can be broken. Broken not cause unable to fulfill it. Cause everyone is changing. When someone promised me something, I will think twice. I don't hope that I will get hurt again. Not I don't want to believe but my wound don't let me to do so.

Is it so hard to be happy? *sigh* this is life.

thank you

Someone cure my heart :). Make me feel safe again. And make me to make promises again.

Maybe it's a gift from god for you to be in my life. If it's really is, thank god! Feel so glad that you're in my life. I can't mention how I feel now. Maybe the glad is the most suitable word to describe my feeling now :D.

Just a short post to thank someone. Although I know the one who I thanked won't see this post, I still decided to post this out :).

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latte

I'm blogging while I'm waiting for me to be sleepy. Can't fall asleep cause drank Latte Blog. Going to be panda soon :).

Planned to have steamboat for dinner but plan ruined. So went to Macdonald. Everyone is like so disappointed. Cause all of us had been waited for the steamboat feast for so long. Haha.

No one can effect my life now. I mean no one. You want to think negative is your problem. Get offended just walk away. I still have to support many people in my life so I won't fall down for a small matter. I have to be strong. I don't need to explain for anything cause I know the truth.

Once again, God answered my prayer today :). From the moment I opened the bible, God had already showed which verse I should read to get the answer. After I know what I should do, I feel happy again :). All the emo shoo away from me. Thanks God! I hated my attitude of praying just when need God's help. I will pray often starts from today.

When will I get sleepy? I still feel fresh T___T. Anyway, that's all for today. :)

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your journey

I see, your journey. How you climb up until you get today's achievement. How many things you had pass through. How many hard work had been done. I feel it and I see it.

See your commitment, see your passion. Till you get what you deserve, till you success in it.

But now, you ruin everything that you get. You run from it. You make yourself away from your passion just because you're scared to face it.

Everything is not too late to change now. Please, realize. Many people is waiting for you to back into you again. Do you want to waste your hard work for so many years?

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waiting for you

Everyone who know my secret! :D Do you all still remember the word Waiting For You? This words had changed my life. Changed my life to a better life.

Someone is in my life now. Makes me smile for everyday of my life. Makes me feel happy and makes me want to sing. Thank you God! I know it's all your arrangement!

I will appreciate everyone in my life =). No matter they are bad or good. Well, the bad ones make me to become more mature =). Should thank them for hurting me and playing all kinds of tricks. But I rather smack them and makes them pay back for what they had done.

Still acting to be steady? Still acting like you had done nothing wrong? Still acting like you don't need anyone's support? Nah. I don't want to know :). But all I know is people started to know the real you. The one who makes people feel annoying. You sure will pay back what you had done. Maybe not today or tomorrow. But I'm sure in the future, you will.

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