he smiles at me ^ .^

I am actually not interested on writing blog... that's why i seldom update my blog... but here is where I can express my feeling to her... honestly, I am hoping her to view my blog... just once please... I want her to know exactly how I felt on her.. I am not sure if she viewed my blog , but in case she did , I her to know that , my feeling to her is seriously serious... I knew she has a BF recently(few month ago which I don't want to accept this facts)... Though I am sad , my feeling to her is still there... I'll be content just by watching her... Just like today , after recess while I walking up to my class , we met and she smiled at me... But too bad, I miss my chance again... I act like an idiot in front of her... I want to smile back to her but I am too shy , I want to say hello to her but I am too afraid... Afraid of what? I have no idea... One word to describe : Noob... Where did my courage go ? Come on man... You expect a girl to take the first step? Such a coward... Anyway , if you are viewing this post... I hope you may know how I felt...